That title describes life for me just about perfectly. Life as been a whirlwind that I've been trying to keep up with and I am not sure if I'm doing a good job of that or not. Work has been work and nothing more which is fine by me, but the work that is finding a "real" job is excruciating. No one wants a noob and they don't want to take a chance on giving them an experience. Yes, I did just use the term "noob".
I know I just need to keep applying and keep searching but my school loans are closing in and I won't lie, I'm terrified. I've never had a lot of money and I've never been able to save a lot because I've always been paying for bills or prescriptions or gas or something. I just simply don't make enough money and I know everyone else is in the same boat with me. I just don't want to fail, I don't want to put the burden on anyone else and I want to be able to take care of my own financial problems.
But then I remember how bitter I am about wasting all those years in classes I didn't need or enjoy and all the money I didn't need to spend.
It sucks.
On the other hand I'm incredibly happy and motivated! I've been doing a lot of design stuff and churning out some pieces here or there. I'm taking extra classes on top of my certificate which is incredibly awesome. I'm learning a lot, and I think I've figured out that I really want to learn about branding and that area of marketing. I believe I'd be really great at it.
I also have met this guy and I don't want to say too much, but oh my goodness I'm crazy about him. We're really great together and we love spending time with each other. It's only been a little while but we know we were meant to meet and there is just something there. It's crazy and I know it sounds a little unreasonable but that's how it is. If only he weren't leaving soon for work! He's gonna be away for four months! But, we've agreed that this is something worth working on and we'll figure it out :)
I just thought I'd give you guys an update, and look out for some new posts, I'm even putting together a summer fashion post!
<3 Jen
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